Hm, it's been a while...
I'll tell why it has. I finally came up with a story to write! My writer's block is over! Yay, finally. Oh yeah, I got a name for what it was called when you don't know anything to write. It's writer's block, apperantly...
So, my story became thirty pages. I've written itt by hand and on computer, it was 30pages by computer. Just now I e-mailed it to a publishing company, just for fun. Will send it in by regular mail to one or two other companies as well, just to see if I'm good enough. Wish me luck. I do not have big expectations though... But still. You guys promise to buy if it gets published right? It's sort of a fairytale, abouy homosexuals :P Hehe, let's hope the publishers doesn't have homophobia shall we?

We had our open house today at mange. Monday off, GREAT!! We sold cookies and stuff. My kladdkaka rocked! I don't know what kladdkaka is in english, it's sort of like a brownie, only... stickier, kinda. I think we got around 7000kr, and we'll use for our classtrip in spring. Don't know where we are going though, the class can't seem to agree about anything... Hope it'll be something fun. I want to go to Liseberg!

Well, I hope you guys are well, I am. Except we have about 10 homework a week plus 2 tests, BORING! Anyway, hope we can find another day to hang out on soon, last time was fun =D.

Hugs and kisses! See ya

So, Prao's over!  I can't say I didn't like it. But I honestly can't give you an opinion about how fun it was... I'm confused.
So, I got to "teach" the brats on my last day over there. I gave them an writing execise of which I have done a couple of times. The excericise goes like this: I say a word, and you write down what you think of when you hear that word, for example; if I say Boat and you think of Water then you'll write water down. Then when I've said a few words, for the kids I said five, you'll write a story with your chosen words in it. Not  necessarily About them, just have them in the story. I gave the kids these words: Halloween(it's the same in english), Mysterium(mystery), Karamell(caramell), Tandläkare(dentist) & Paj(pie). They seemed to have some trouble with it, about half of them didn't even get to the writing of the story... A bit dissapointing really, but whatever.

So, listen up(that menas: Linn, Gabby,Jessi, David & Vicke) I think tuesday would be a good day to hang out on, just remembered I have plans for Monday, but I still need an answer ffrom David. Hopefully we'll come up with something to do(Ebba's börjar bli lite tjatigt..) 
By the way, my grandmother are to move down here to HBG. She are do to arrive on Thursday, my dad and brother flew up there yesterday to help her with the packing and the driving down here and whatnot... I'm so excited! =)

Well, that's all for now.
See ya.

So, four days left. For you who doesn't know I have my Prao at a school, in a first grade.
Okay, not to insult anyone, but those kids are stupid. They can't stay still for more than fifteen minutes if you're lucky. I'm not saying that I was any better at that age, but I think that I could hold still for longer than that...

I actually don't remember that much from from neither first or second grade. Anyone who cares to elighten me?

So, I have to get up at six in the morning cause I have to get ready since the bus comes at 7.06. Then I have to take the train as well, which departures at 7.33(well, that's what they say it should, but it doesn't until 7.36)... God, it's exhausting really, I don't think I want to become a teacher. But we'll see, they're actually rather sweet when they FOCUS at what they should do, which is rearly...

Well, I've started to write short stories. Finally the inspiration is back! =)    I write fairytales, sort of. It's about gay people. God, I love slash!  Oh, by the way, for you who doesn't know: I'm bisexual, I swing both ways ;)   And I'm single, if you're interested, which I doubt...

Well, that's all for me this time.

I'll keep in touch, and I hope you will too.  See you

I'm so happy right now. It's conformed that my grandmother will come to live down here during the winters. We think she'll come in november, which is great in one way 'cause the 21t of november we have an open house at my school (and now the rest of you know, I hope you'll come and I hope you'll read this in time) and it would be fun to have my grandmother at a scholl event since she has never attended one before. =)

Right now my siblings and I are watching my aunt's dog. The cutest dog in the world if I can say so myself. But it seems that I'm the only one watching her since the others are "busy"...

I think about doing my prao at a vet. When I was younger I wanted to work with animals and I want to see if I might consider that.. It's during the weeks 42-43 and if I get one at the animal clinic here on Berga there might be a chance that I'll be eating lunch att VB. But I'll have to call at monday to ask, I'm running a little short on time it seems since the most people I kinow already have got their prao... So I'm a bit stressed...

Well well, hopefully it'll turn out just fine.

See ya soon or somethin'...

I'M BORED!!!!!!!!  Very unusual right?

Me and my family have been dog-sitters this weekend. We have watched my aunt's dog. Her name is Esther and she is adorable!! He is about five months old and she lost her first milk tooth when she was here. I don't know what her breed is called in english but in swedish it's called Tibetansk Spaniel.

Anyways... I want to learn finnish ( don't know if it's spelled like that) since my grandfather (Mum's side) was from Finland and his sister, my mum's aunt, has sent me a textbook. But it's impossible for me to learn a language just in reading. I have to hear it! Therefore I'll ask, do anyone know a good language course? Preferably in this city. And not too expensive...  I could really use your help in this cause I really want to learn. I would like to go to Finland some day, and even if the most people there understand swedish it would be fun to be able to talk to them in their own language.

I really have no clue what to do right now. BORED. RED ALERT!!  I could write some more on Lj but that would probably be a load of crap or maybe a bag of shit....

OH, that's right. I've seen Harry Potter and the half blood prince at the cinema for about a week ago. Since I always compare the HP-movies with the book I have to say that I was a tad dissappointed. The movie was really different  from the book. I'm not saying it was a bad movie, it was actually pretty good and exciting. But there were too many changes...

Well  I have to go and watch a movie or something, I can't stand this boringness(is that even a word?) any longer.
(Isn't it funny how I always seem to be bored in the evenings?)

Sayonara

Good god. Alexander Rybak is a really good singer. But song nr 8 at his cd "Fairytales" is so sad I could cry. It's named "13 horses" and it's about 13 horses abonded in the sea and they're dying!!  God, I would write down the lyrics if I had the patience but it's so sad I'm afraid that I will make everyone elese cry...

Hah, I found it on Google. If you cry now I'm sorry but at the same time if you don't feel sorry for these horses I almost would think you're heartless...


13 Horses lyrics

13 horses swimming in the sea
Waiting for someone to find them
Their ship is gone
and now they are alone
With water everywhere around them
The men were saved
from the sinking ship
Right before it started to burn
And while they’re safe
their loyal friends need help
Patiently waiting for their turn

13 horses swimming in the sea
They don’t even know it’s pointless
Their pride remains
but this time it won’t help
They used to be so tall
and suddenly they’re small
There’s a couple waiting far behind
Soon they will be out of sight
But then who cares –
they’re dying anyway
All of them are doomed this night

11 horses swimming in the sea
The sea they thought was just a river
They’re used to this
it’s probably just a race
That helps to ease their minds
but where’s the finish line
The night grows dark
the body wants to rest
It hurts to breathe
and still they do their best
They want to live
no matter for how long
Their thoughts all disappeared
‘Cause now they’re really scared

7 horses struggling in the sea
Waiting for someone to find them
They don’t look back
‘cause what’s the point of that
There is only death behind them
They cry for help
but help will never come
They don’t know where to swim
or what they’re swimming from
They try to swim some more
when panic starts to spread
They’re swimming in to shore
but only in their heads

The 3 last horses
Dying in the sea
Shouting out their cries for no one
They’re born to win
they’re screaming in their hearts
The strength of thousand men
They’re fighting to the end

The sun is up
Birds are everywhere
They’re flying high
surfing in the air
It’s nice to live
when life is such a blast
One horse still swims
it seems to be the last

The thirteenth horse
has always been the best
His owner will be proud
But now he wants to rest
He’s longing for his home
The girl will give him food
“Good boy” - she’ll say
together they will play

13 horses swimming in the sea
Soon they will be gone forever
And while they swim,
One thing still remains
And that’s the hope that never dies
It never dies
It never dies




I cried the first time I heard this, but I just can't stop listening. He has a beautiful voice and his voice is really emotional in this song.





Hm, anything else? Don't think so....


 Adieu

So, summer is here. Finally!  I've been to norrland (as always)  This year wasn't as fun asit use to be. First of all, the heat wasn't fun cause it got mosquitos and other blood-likin-bugs to come and annoy us. And my great-grandmother died so  we went to her funeral which meant that my aunts came up as well and the house got crowded.  I didn't know my great-grandmother that good but I still wanted to cry at the funeral since my grandmother, my mom and my aunts cried and that made me want to cry. I didn't.  And our car broke down up there, obviously it got fixed, otherwise I wouldn't be home. I got a lump under my arm that hurt like hell, the doctor said that the lump was because an infection in my body, I got 2 kind of penicillin for it. That was the first time we was at the hospital up there. The same day I had visited the hospital my brother went there too since he got his head smashed and it started bleeding... I haven't told this in the particular order it happened, the funeral was at the end of it all...

Home sweet home, even if I love norrland I still think it's nice to be back home! Hah the irony though is that under the two and a half week we spent in norrland we longed for it to rain, and when we got home it started to rain here. Well, I have never fancied heat that much so it's rather nice with the weather here.

Now I have nothing more to write.

 

Wow. It has been a while since I last wrote here. Now when the summer holiday is getting closer the teachers at school seem to have nothing better to do then give us tests and homework.

So, what have been happening recently?
Well, the confirmation classes are over, but I still DO NOT belive in God. 
Apperently I'm the strongest girl in my class and that get the guys pissed, or something like that.
In swedish class we have started to read a book that we are supposed to have read through until thursday, "Lord of the flies",  I've already finished it. And if you wanna know my opinion I think it's the most BORING book in world history! Seriously, like two thirds of the book is just describing enviroment and such...  Urgh, I hate it! I hope I won't read anything like that again.
Me and my second oldest cousin from my mother's side Angelica have been hanging out lately. She and I have appearantly a lot in common. She's nice.
Well I can't think about anything else that has happened recently...

Hah, I just realized, soon  it has been a year since I got LJ. Last time I had a LJ (under a different name) I didn't have it for more than six months I think and updated it like three times at that time...

I'm longing for the summer holiday! Hope it'll come fast, and last long!

Well, I'm going to bed now.

So the easter-break is comin up. Actually it has already started. I want it  to last for longer than it does, but I'll have to be greatful I guess.

The weather has been sunny and really nice for two days now. Hope it'll last. It's April now, I'm really  longing for the summer break. I want to go to norrland. I really do, I've been wanting that since January, don't know why... Would be fun to go to school there just for a term...

So, I've been riding my moped just today, and yesterday as well. I really like it. I'm thinking about naming my moped, I know it sounds geeky, but it would be fun. My moped is a she, obviously... Hm, how about Starlight? Or maybe not... I'll figure something good out for her.

Hah, my borther is jealous that my moped is faster than his. So he wants to get a Eu-kort as well and buy a Eu-scooter too. I think he is really sad, he hates that I have something he doesn't, and the fact that I have a Eu-kort And that I can drive 20km faster then him is just driving him mad... 

Oh, well. We'll see if he rally goes through with it..

I've been thinking a lot of a special subject lately. I have no idea how the subject entered my mind and I don't know how to get it out, it's a bit annoying you know.
Anyways, this is what I've been thinking: What if I someday lost my memory, not all of it,  I just forgot who I AM. And what if there was Someone who didn't like who I was and this Someone tricked me into being someone I'm not. That wouldn't be right would it? I mean, I'm allowed to be myself.  I'm not saying that there is someone who would do that, but I can't help but worrying. Cause I wanna be who I am even if I someday lose my memory. Not that I'm saying that I will, but it happens sometimes to people. Especially now when my moped's fixed. And accident could happen, and I could lose my memory.  I just hope that IF I do then there won't be anyone who wants to trick me. 

As said, i don't why and how I started thinking about this. But now that I've written it down it hopefully will go away, or at least be buried in my subconsciousness... 

Let's see, something else happened? Well, my prao went well, they gave me flowers and a notebook on the last day, so I think they liked my work. I haven't been at school the last two days since I have had trouble to sleep. Don't know why. And tomorrow it's no school. So that's nice.

Can't think of anything else at the moment...  Except, I'mm gonna ride my moped for the first time tomorrow, it got fixed on the weekend =)  Wish me luck.

My prao started yesterday. It's exciting to see what's going on at a library other than just loan books and such.., But the atmosphere is a bit dull. From 10 to 13:30 there are just old people there, they doesn't really DO anything... They just sit there and looks like corpses. Okay, that might be harsh and I don't hate old ppl, just so you know. But they're just no fun,   the ppl who works there are a bit fun. Well, there are only two people per day since there are just no room for more in the staff room. Today both of them were a bit boring actually, but one of them are quite old and the other (the only male staff there) is very, very quiet. But I shouldn't complain cause school's worse.  And they seem to be really happy that I'm there,  and they're very friendly. But I'm a bit jelous at my sister. She's doing her prao and the Main library down town. And she's gonna get to ride the bookmobile. Since I'm a bit of a bookworm it's not that weird that I'm jelous. But there's lots of going ons at "my" library as well.

I think I'm getting a cold, my throat has been hurting since monday evening. But I don't wanna miss my prao. So I'll try my best, wish me luck!

Hm. is there anything else? Can't think of anything else at the moment. Well, if I think of something I'll be back.

I'll be in touch soon, that's Almost a promise.

Bybye!!

So, I'm bored. Really surprising isn't it? (sarcasmwarning!!) Cause it is just SOOOO unusual for me to be bored right? (not)

Well. that's just who I am, I have no life whatsoever.  My life is music, reading and writing (but it's not much of that these days..).  I really want to write but I don't know what. Always when I start something it stops halfway since I always am out of ideas at that point. I don't  know why and it annoys the crap out of me!! I don't know how to stop it... And it bother me since I really wanna write something that people wanna read, I wanna publish it. ..  Now I realize that this sounds a bit of pathetic, doesn't it? Anyone that can give advice? I'm a bit desperate for it at the moment....  Maybe I just should find another hobby?


Oh well, maybe the bad luck will change.
It seems like I have a  bit of  a negative attitude right now.

Some time ago I realized that I'm a little emotionless. I never smile at people, it's just when I'm laughing that I smile, and my fake smile isn't good. I don't yell at others than my family (mostly my brother) and I never cry. NEVER! Maybe if I see a sad movie there can come one or two tears, but that's it. Guess there aren't that much stuff to cry about these days. What more emotions are there? Hmm...  can' think of any. Anger, happiness and sadness are the biggest categories among people right? Oh well...

Linn, Jessica and Gabby. It was really nice to meet you yesterday at the hospital!  I don't miss Västra Berga, I really don't. But I miss the three of you so much!  Hope to see you soon again, we don't meet so often these days.   Hope you read this. 

Well, I can't think of anything more to write, so this is it for the evening. But I'lll write on monday to tell you about my first day of prao. I think it'll be lots of fun.

So, want to know something dull?  My sister has got diabetes. Like me. So she's the second in the family that got it.. Apperently it's not that unusual that twins get it, but that's mosty identical twins... The nurse at the hospital told us about that and got really suprised when she saw that me and Vicke (=my sister) weren't identical... It started when we thought that she had an infection in the eye, it got examed yesterday at our family doctor (or something like that) and later  the same day they put her on the public hospital for diabetes... I was there myself , I had visited a dietist (a woman that talked about food, what's right to eat and such) and on the way out I met my sister, mom and dad. So I came with them. Then me and dad went home to get clothes for Vicke and mom, mom stays with her at the hospital.  We couldn't bring her the laptop since there's a lot of thieves at hospitals, apperently... I feel bad for her since she's not that found of needles/shots. And I hope they let her do PRAO next week. She's a bit depressed. But who wouldn't be?
I'm used to it. And I got mine so early that I hadn't got used to a certain lifestile yet, I was four at the time. And sodas and sweets isn't good for a four year old. But now I'm fifteen, and so is she, so she HAS got used to, for example,  regular coca-cola and breakfeast whenever she wants on weekends. So it's gonna be a bit of a change for her.  And I have no idea what to say to make her feel better...
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So, what else is there to write..?  Shool's boring as usual. My moped is still broken   [ =(       But I'm longing for prao. None of my working hours starts earlier then 10 a.m (a.m means in the morning right?) . I know it'll be fun.  AND, I get to sleep!!!!

There was something more I wanted to write....  But I forgot. Besides, I have to go to bed soon.

Sweet dreams everybody.  I'll be back, soon I think.... 

I seriously  got no life! I'm sitting by the computer on a sunday and doing abslutely nothing except listening to music...

I'm angry with my brother, my moped was nearly done, then he broke a screw. Dad says it can be fixed but my brother can't get the ass of the couch and start fix it! He promised to do so. But he always "makes other plans". A part of me thinks that he doesn't want me to drive my moped. I wanna ride it! I've been wanting it since I turned 15, and even longer... So annoying!!!

Tomorrow's school, where did the weekend go? It went so fast, like a snap with the fingers.

I want to write something, but I don't know what. A story maybe, or a poem. Maybe a limerick, but I have no idea what it is, it sounds fun though.

I have nothing to write. I Have nothing to write I HAve nothing to write. I HAVe nothing to write. I HAVE nothing to write. I HAVE Nothing to write. I HAVE NOthing to write. I HAVE NOThing to write. I HAVE NOTHing to write. I HAVE NOTHIng to write. I HAVE NOTHINg to write. I HAVE NOTHING to write. I HAVE NOTHING To write. I HAVE NOTHING TO write. I HAVE NOTHING TO Write. I HAVE NOTHING TO WRite. I HAVE NOTHING TO WRIte. I HAVE NOTHING TO WRITe. I HAVE NOTHING TO WRITE!!!!!    See where I'm going with this?
I've got no life!
I want to do something, ANYTHING! I'm so damn bored...

Well, I'll try to think of anything.

Bye.  I'll be back. But I have no idea when....

Sorry I haven't written in a while (again..)  I have no idea what to write so...
Well, I'll give it a try.

It was sunshine today, and a clear sky. Had me longing for the summerholiday. But it's only february, soon mars.  In abaout a week it's PRAO, I'm looking foward to it.

I have a great idea for a book, but I have no idea how to start it. It's a bit annoying...

I have nothing else to write now. So this entry is a bit short. Well, at least I updated......

Happy Valentine's day everyone!!


Sorry, I haven't written anything in a while. Forgot, I guess.

So, I passed the EU-course. YEY! But my moped has a flat  tire =( But hopefully it'll get fixed soon!

I wanna go to Norrland, where grandmother lives. It would be interesting to see how it's like in the winter up there.



I just realized something... I've never been in love. It's a weird feeling. Cause sometimes I actually thought I was in love, but it ha always later turned out to be something else, sometimes maybe kind of a crush. But that have always been gone in half a day... And I don't think that a crush and to be in love is the same thing... Is it?

It was something more I was going to write... But I forgot... I can't figure it out.  If I remember what it was then I'll be back. But it seems like this will have to do, for now at least.

I can't promise that I'll be back soon, cause I've been sort of a slack off lately...  But I'll Try to be back soon.
Bye.

Sorry, I've been a bit absent and haven't written anything in a while, but my teachers love to give us homework.

So, I turned 15 this friday. Finally I'm old enough to drive my moped!! But I still have to get my EU-kort. I'm taking the classes this weekend. It starts at 9 o clock in the morning. And ends about four in the afternoon this saturday. Same time and same place att sunday as well. Just hope I'm not the only girl there.  Only 30 ppl can be there. So at least one quarter of those 30 should be girls, according to me.  If I get approved, or what ever it's called I'm getting my Eu-kort in the end of this month.

The same day as I turned 15 my old classmates Jessica, Linn and Amanda (aka AN) and me and my sister got togheter to have a snack at this cafe that serves giant cookies, so delicious. It's decorated in a style that reminds of the fiftys or so. It's a bit expensive. But since they have so tasty things there it's worth it. We just sat there and ate our cakes and talked, catching up at eachother. To me it seemed lik VB isn't approving at all, it has fallen apart a bit. At least it seemed like it when they talked about it... But I might have misunderstood....

What else has happened? I have got Facebook. Just because my aunts have discovered it and they nagged at me to get it. So I did, it's more interesting than I thought... Even if I don't really get it.
And I have a place to make my PRAO, if you translate it to english ´letter for letter it would be PRWE I think, PRactical Worklife Experience. Cause, that's what the letters stand for, in swedish. But in the englishtalking countries I think someone who does what we call PRAO is called an intern? Anyway, I got my PRAO at the library that lies nearby. I think it'll be fun. It's in week 11,  9-13 mars. I'm longing, then I get to sleep a bit longer. Wish it lasted for two weeks.

Oh well, I can't think of anything else to say... I'll try to write soon again, maybe after the classes at sunday. Hope it goes well, wish me luck. Bye